Requiem for Chili Chips

WRITTEN LAST NIGHT:
Someone once told me that certain cautionary things made him terrified of being in certain, unprecedented situations. This certain person used the example of the rape play, the famous and wonderful rape play that Hamline puts on every year. Apparently this play made him terrified that he would, indeed, rape somebody. He was dead serious, too. If I mentioned who this individual was you'd know how serious he was. In other news, TextEdit counts 'ho' as a word.

I made the mistake of watching 'Requiem for a Dream', a movie that requires hugs afterwards (poor Jared Leto, he's going to have trouble hugging people after THAT, amirite? Okay, poor taste). That movie makes me terrified that I'm going to become a drug addict. Ridiculous, right? You don't just BECOME a drug addict. William S. Burroughs once talked about how long it would take to get a junk habit. Something like, a month or more of everyday intravenous drug use for a first timer. Okay, but still. I don't want my arm chopped off. I don't want to become a whore. I don't want to end up an old lady in a mental ward, wanting to be on television. I am just slightly terrified. Although, the movie does a very good job of not glorifying drug use, which is interesting. It also helps to have your druggie friends puking out their guts and screaming, that certainly isn't glorified in any way. In fact, having seen my fair share of vomit and head wounds from all night benders of god knows what, I'm pretty okay with not doing a whole ton of drugs most of the time. The most adverse effect my once friend, mentioned above, had from Adderal and Vodka was becoming 'CROCKLEY FOR BROCCOLI' and forcing his way into the kitchen to devour a bag of frozen broccoli. So it's not all bad. Then again, he did throw me from his house and tell me that I should go DIAF (die in a fire) after my brother was hospitalized simply because he was sick of me complaining about my weight. I try not to do that so much anymore.

It's 3:35 in the morning and for lack of things to do I've smoked a pack of cigarettes and eaten a bag of ChiliChips. I watched some Firefly, some Bleach, and then Requiem. Needless to say, I can't sleep, but it's not all that late so I'll probably be tired by 5ish. I just have fucking nothing to do until I DO become tired.